i dropped off m and her mom at the airport tonight (business to attend to in southern california), and now the house is very empty. n has been in houston for weeks and is well into her sophomore year at rice. on friday, b left for paris, where she'll be studying this fall. and i am... home alone. "a lovely cheese pizza, just for me..."
i do not especially enjoy the solitary life. i know it ought to be an opportunity to rest in the quiet and seek God in a more focused way, but more often, i just end up doing a lot of (needed) cleaning up and organizing the house, and i usually stay up far too late. it's probably a good thing that i'm not a single guy anymore...
but i find myself thankful to God that i had some precious time with each of the girls before they departed; those opportunities come all too infrequently these days, and it was a joy to have them with us for a time. and i'm grateful that m and p will have the chance to address some needs that have been too long neglected. this is a chance to make some headway on some intransigent, long-term issues.
and so, i thank God, and i hope to use the involuntary gift of time and space for good. this is not the way i'd want to live all of the time but in this case, it feels like a gift.
i have become like a lonely bird on a housetop...
psalm 102:7
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